I have made friends throughout the years, some stay around and some seem to stand in the background when I need them the most. It does hurt, but I totally get it! If I wasn't the one who's always the "sick" friend, the one who's "damaged" I may be the same way but isn't that when you need people by your side the most?!
In high school my best friend and I had a lot of the same issues,but not your typical teenage girl drama, we just had a not so pleasant home life and could totally relate to each other and helped keep each other grounded. I tend to lean more towards people I can relate to but right now, at this moment in life, I don't have many who have been through what I have and to just compare stories. I do however have a great support system (FINALLY) and strangely enough I met these ladies 6 months ago :) I love them all and thankful for the playgroup mamas because they distract me from life's woes. No one has a perfect life, that's NO secret but I don't feel like the damaged one when I'm with them.
I was chatting with a friend last night who felt lonely, shes been going through a lot, pretty much her whole life, but especially this past year. Shes a strong, inspirational woman who has taught me a lot the past shit, 10 years! I met her when I was in the ARCh Youth Team at a conference for Shaken Baby Syndrome/Child Abuse in Florida. We stayed in touch and just developed a friendship over the years. Shes always there to send encouraging words, a virtual hug, or just a shoulder to cry on and vent to. Although shes thousands of miles away shes helped me realize that this too shall pass. I want her to know how much I care and I do tell her often but I hope this resonates the next time she feels blue, as Jaelynn would say, "pinks a better color, don't feel blue!"
Now that I rambled on and on, and believe me I could keep going about so many of my friends, the point is I'm not alone, people will always have stress, heartache, bad times and good times. I just need to remember this when I'm going through the storm to get to the sunshine and lean on those who lean on me.
Mad props to all my true friends, I would not be where I am today without you all <3